A prayer for love whispered between heretics,

  So I've come up with a new system to update this space about my life, here goes ^^ :


Sometime early in May, horrible dinner at Billy's and Indulgez with the bestfr. The food was pricey and horrid tasting (my mushroom soup actually looked like or-bi-bey, jizzus) but we had lots of laughs! The food at Billy's was actually pretty awesome just not worth it, we were still super hungry after that hence.. the visit to Indulgez.. Which sucked balls. 


Flea Above with the family! This was on Vesak day if I'm not wrong. It was super hot but our sales was good so we went home happy bunnies ^^


This was just 2 weeks ago I think. Tea at Arteasetiq with my poppy girl. Had a lovely languid day just chatting, sipping tea and taking pixxx ^^ Dinz with the bestfr and her boyfee at (I can't rmb the cafe name) which was pretty good, good food + good price. Oh happy days. 


The same week as (above), chillax day with my caligirl. We did manicures and caught up major. 


This Thurs, my girls treated me to Genki Sushi for a late birthday celebration (: The food was awesome, we had lots of fun. Me so lucky (:


Today: Brunch with mami at Pique Nique which I loveee. Then to Raffles with my caligirl to hang out with Nazh on her break, the poor dear works full shift almost every day ): Zoomed off to FEP to catch OSF's moving out sale and got myself good deals. Flea afterwards and then Mandarin Gallery to chill, so much laughter and love <3 

Damage incurred:
1. Shuz from OSF: $20
2. Harem Pants from OSF: $5
3. Maxi Dress from OSF: $20
4. Briefcase from OSF: $20
5. 4 Rings from flea: $16.50
6. Necklace from flea: $8
7. Lipstik from flea: $5.70
8. Keyboard cover from flea: $8 

Total: $103.20, not too shabby if I say so myself ^^

Am currently listening/watching Jayesslee and am cringing at my lack of talent and looks, oh wai is life so unfair... In other news, I now have an iPhone and.. a new part time at Haji Lane which makes things rather hectic for me but you know.. Life is better when you're busy right? No room for idle people!! 

Events not covered:
- Avengers outing with Caligirl & Nazh
- NTU HSS Tea Party
- Birthday celebration with family
- Mini reunion with Sarah and Ridhwan
- Graduation!!
- Late birthday celebration with Claudi

That's it I think! Will upload pix when I'm less lazy, here's a nice long post (: 

So I guess May has been pretty good to me so far. I got into NTU which I've been praying for months and months for, got my first professional speaking role, going to get my new phone in 2 weeks, graduation coming up, zine coming along nicely, hopefully a lovely birthday approaching.. Things have been going well though I've rounded many corners with doubts. Now I just need one more thing to work out for me and I'm done. If it does, then I will go on to wonder when in heaven's name will I ever find the LOML.

That is all. 

Quick photograph update for the month of April, not chronological of course:


Soup Spoon date with my lemurgirl ^^


Claudi's birthday dinz ^^


Claudi's birthday pizza~~


Dessert with papiton ^^


Checking out gastronomia(sp??)


hehe papiton <3



After some lame part-time work for DBS with mai linlin ^^


Skyping with my American babies ^^


yeah i like strobe lights


Murakami <3


Finally found the time to get my brows done.


Kbox + lunch with Heather ^^ (very stupidly lost my wallet on this day too :x)


Favourite juice from Margaret jiejie ^^


Will update with more pix soon^^

The weather has really been psychotic lately. Burning like hell on earth in the morning and then breaking into heavy showers in the evening. The bossman dropped me off at Telok Blangah(sp?) after work because they were swinging by that area, easier for me to bus home (as opposed to taking a bus and then train from the office)! Because of the rain though, there was a massive jam (okay not massive but it felt massive because of the distance). Received a text from my dad saying that I had a letter from NTU and I nearly died in anticipation. 

Repeating a desperate prayer through my growing gastric pangs and bursting bladder throughout the entire journey, I really hated the weather from jeopardizing my speedy return home.

When I finally got home~~~



I don't know how to explain the feeling. Happiness definitely, a huge sigh of relief yes, but there was something else. Finally I could forgive myself, could stop torturing myself, for not getting any distinctions, or director's lists or any merit prizes. Finally I felt like the best that I gave was enough (: After all, who cares if I didn't top my poly cohort if I'm going to university anyway right? AND NTU AT THAT~~~~ I am so grateful and so so so so happy. Okay this is all I can say right now, not too eloquent when I'm excited.

Thank you Jesus. 

So I've been meaning to update but I always put it off and before I know it, days have gone by without me paying the slightest attention to this space. It's important for me to write though, even if nothing substantial comes out of it. I feel like I have to record my thoughts down somewhere, or at least update a little about my life so that I don't forget so easily. I've overlooked so many important moments in my life before, moments that I thought were just your normal run-of-the-mill happenings, and this brings me so much regret. Sometimes important things happen when we least expect it, or sometimes we don't even know when it happens. Patience has never been my strong suit, I hate waiting to see how things play out. But sometimes we just have to. So I have to record everything, or at least the essence, of what is happening around me; so that I can find a foot-hole if the ground starts to crumble. 

Been working for For Flea Sake for about a month now. Am officially going over to the marketing side, something that I enjoy a lot;  copywriting and social media marketing. i's really awesome to work with something that you love. Have picked up another tuition class for Saturday mornings but am still floundering on the money issue, paying my debts slowly and trying to gain some semblance of what people call.. savings.... 

My life is pretty much quiet and mundane right now. Just trying to work hard, to read and write more, to recuperate from all the noise that has been in my system. Little things still stir up in my heart sometimes, it's hard to find middle ground.

Ending off with a pix of my favourite pet (amongst the few that I've ever had)


I love you Bibi, I loved you so much even though our time together was so short. I hope you're happy in the little country side, I hope there's lots of greens for you to frolic about, I hope there are many little kids who love you and want to bring you treats all the time. You will always have a special place in my heart. 

原来，当一个人不爱你，你多么努力也是没用的，晨昏定省，管接管送，在怎么出尽九牛二虎之力，都是徒然的。 有时候，努力是拿不到奖的。我已经不怕走进没有你的世界。

Second day of my new job and things are going rather smoothly despite the long traveling hours. Surprisingly, the traveling time hasn't affected me so much yet but that remains to be discovered as the time goes by. All my days are packed with work/tuition so I'll have hardly any time for pleasure, but sometimes I like life like this (:

Met up with Bettie after work yesterday for BKT which I've been craving for the longest time. Good catch-up session, I'm so proud of how far she has come (:  Now I just hope that things will fall more or less in place for me in the coming months too, breathe slow and pray.