It's finally friday, this week has been such hectic week! I've cleared everything that has been hurled in my direction and for that I'm thankful. I'm glad that I have trustworthy friends to bring me through each hour, each day, each week. Nowadays, I'm just taking life one day at a time, doing it any other way will drive me nuts.

GL training was good, reminded me of what sports camp days were like. Wasn't very active though, I will try not to be so reserved, haha. Was thankful that Bangla&co signed up too, it was fun for the most part. I'm going to try to enjoy the weekend though there's about ten million things for me to get done!

I love boys with small chinese eyes ^^

Busy busy busy, school has been busy, life has been busy, work has been busy, everything has been busy. My life seems to progress on it's own and the days pass without me noticing them go by. I'm lost in my own schedule and I walk around in a dream. I miss control, I need to be in control.

On a separate note, my mac needs major servicing.  

I am uploading pictures very diligently right now. Will only post a few here, and a few selected others on fb. Way to many(aka too many ugly pix) to post all up, sooooooo.. there you go, next post, very fast ^^ 

 Dinner at Toby's tonight was good. Great food, great company, I had a good time. Will post some pictures up in the next few days or so. The days have been going by quickly, not exactly a good sign. Assignments are really piling up and I'm finding it difficult to spur myself on, fight fight fight Alyyyyyyy ^^

Anyway, long day tmr. Wardrobe fitting at 8am, Raffles, with Bangla&Sarah, then training@3pm, work at 7pm. Got a feeling that I'll be really drained by the end of the day. Another long day on sunday, sighhh.

Goodnight!

It's 1.32am in the morning and I was staring blankly at my computer screen so I decided to blog. I really ought to be sleeping and resting up because I foresee that school is going to get tough in the following week, but I just don't want to, I am stupid like that. The air is so still tonight, it feels so stifling and I am bored shitless. Listening to sad songs in the dead of the night alone in the dark is so not lifting my mood, gah. 

I should really start paying more attention in school, the first 3(almost) weeks of school has passed by like a dream for me, I don't even take notice of things like assignment deadlines or whatever, i get shocked by them, this isn't good. Haha, huge run on sentence.

Funny feeling here. 

Don't be sold a dream,
Remember how the past has been.
Don't be led to believe this one's for you.
Calculate your needs, I see there's room to plant your seeds,
Don't decide till you see how others have grown.




I am becoming the princess of ponology. Stoned through the first few lectures of the day. During break, I bumped into Bangla, Sarah&co at the library, was so bored that I decided to ditch socphy lecture. Took a tour around singapore to get to this studio place thingy for some gown training thingy. We had to learn how to help graduates to put on their graduation gowns! It was super boring and I was really really slow at it. Bangla got it real fast though, the lady made me repeat it again and again and again /: 

Assignments have been piling up, I didn't even notice until today. Ugh, I need to start being more self-motivated. I am a big girl, I must do my work /:

There are some people who you just can't release from your heart. No matter how many times you tell yourself that they don't mean anything special to you anymore, the truth remains to be the opposite. Every single kind word or gesture that they extend to you touches your heart and you just can't help it. Some people just never walk away from your life. 

I feel so mediocre without you. 

 Today, this could be the greatest day of our lives,
Before it all ends, before we run out of time.
Stay close to me, stay close to me,
Watch the world come alive tonight,
Stay close to me.



Today was a good day despite it being a monday, monday blues and all. Was disconcerted at the sight of Makan Place at noon, there were students EVERYWHERE. Cherry and I nearly died trying to find a place to have lunch and we were super cranky because it was so hot and we couldn't find a seat. Ended up going to OurSpace to try the new cafe which wasn't too bad I must say, at least we could actually feel the aircon and there wasn't much of a que^^ 

After much deliberation, we decided to pon IS, HAHA. Waited for Meimei then cabbed down to town. Meimei got her hair done, I put down a deposit for the bag I was lusting for and we shopped around a little. I need my pay pronto! /: NYDC for dinner, lasagna&onion rings ^^ Was super filling, bused back to school for softballzxzx. The rain didn't really stop much so we just tossed balls and bummed around, ended up going to BTP for pool then homeeeee. 

I know it sounds very boring and all but I had a good time. My ellejay posts are.. So self-absorbed, I rarely have anything good to say these days. Haha. 

Goodnight world ^^

It was an eventful day today. Got up early to pack up the whole room, it looks so much cleaner nao, haha. My wardrobe is still a disaster zone though, have to find some time to clean that up too. Met Kelvin and zoomed to town in the evening, found out that the bag I was eyeing at FEP was sold out, broke my heart /: Starbux with him, Jo and TW and had XLBs for dinner so I was a happy girl.

Work was really busy because of Halloween and I was doing a horrible job. Kept dropping things and such, it was kinda embarrassing, h8 myself sometimes. Supper with Cherry, Jo, Kelvin and TW after work at Lido which was quite fun because we saw quite a few Halloween-ing people. My ellejay posts are all so boring and self-absorbed, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.

Long day tmr! Family day, gosh. I need to start on my assignments /:

Byebye good people. 

Today, someone said something to me that really encouraged me, for that I'm extremely grateful ^^ The past week has been spent in school, softball and work, so I really have no life apart from these three things. Assignments are coming in but I actually have no idea what they are, haha. Training is canceled tmr so that really sucks but I'm going to take the opportunity to clean my room before I go to work. Working with Joanna and TW has been awesome despite the varying MODs, but I'll be working a lot less as the days go by so we'll see what happens. I wish school didnt start so quickly. 

Can anyone stop this thing?
Before my head explodes, 
Before my head starts to ring.
We've been living life inside a bubble,
We've been living life inside a bubble.




So tired from the constant quarrels with the parents, mum in particular. Just wish that one day, I'd be able to put my point across to her calmly and effectively, and that one day, she'll really understand. It's so difficult with the generation gap and different values, I just really need more time. Maybe the problem lies with myself, maybe I'm just not mature enough to know what's enough. 

I don't want to be the smartest girl, or the prettiest one, or the one with the most money. I don't want a boyfriend who is unfailingly handsome and charming and rich. I don't want parents who shower me with money and gifts and what not. I just want to be average, average but happy. You know what I mean?

Tick tock, gum drop. 

Hello livejournal. I miss my bestfriend, but I don't think she misses me much.

IS COM today was... Interesting. Softball was great as usual <3<3<3 I have a really bad flu and a sore throat so I think I'm going to rest early tonight. Goodnight folks. 

Trying to walk away from fights is the hardest thing to do. I really really really wish my mother would think more intently. I am certain that I know what I am doing. It doesnt matter that I've proved it to her time and time again, fuck. I am never good enough. 

 You'll go backwards,
But then, you'll go forwards again.
Created.. Then drilled and invaded.
If somebody made it,
Then someone will mess it up.



Somedays I don't know where to start. Training was slack today but still fun, rushed to work and was nearlyyyyy late but was there in time, thank god. I realise that I use a lot of run on sentences in my blogposts. haha. Something happened at work today which made me pretty upset but a few heartwarming words were directed at me and sometimes I feel that that makes it all worth it. It's unpleasant to see the ugly side of some people but when you see the compassion and understanding nature in others because of such an incident, it really warms the heart. For that, I don't feel regretful for what happened and I accept it as a life lesson ^^

Mass tomorrow? To go or not to go? 

There are somethings that money just cannot buy. Like, my bestfriend. It's been close to 5 years, 5 very long years in fact. We've grown up, changed, and been through so many things together. Today, I just feel really lucky to have her. Love you Cherry Lim ^^

But my heart aches when I think of the things I shouldn't have done. 


 

First week of school so far has been slow.. Introductory lessons and such have been a bore and frankly, I'm bored already. Softball has been good, we've finally got a steady girl's team(more or less), so everything's great. Lessons start at 8am tmr, please kill me.

Something happened today, I'm scared.

 Today I arrived home feeling tired but happy. Softball has this way of making me feel fulfilled and content. When there is softball, there is nothing else for me, I strive to achieve the feeling of mirth that the endorphins administer to me and it feels grrrrrreat.  If life could be just about friends, fun and softball, things would always be rosy ^^ 

Now however, I'm suddenly filled with disappointment, my heart is heavy. So very often in life, we fail to see how good we've got it and jeopardize our own good fortune by running straight into the opposite direction of where we should go. Sometimes it takes a third person to see what's really going on. I wish my friends would make the right decision and not act on a fleeting thought or feeling that was not made to last and will not last. I am not saying that I am perfect or that I am able to see myself perfectly all the time, I just hope that my friends will take the advice given and prevail unscathed. I love all parties involve and I hope for the best possible outcome. 

God, please help me be strong for them. 

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